Mistaken

It seems to me 
that the pain of change
has been mistaken
all along. Maybe
this lonely 
desperation 
has really been 
acceptance.

well i tried and i tried and i tried
i tried to tell myself it'll be alright.

And now it seems 
to me i've gone this 
long livin' the great 
cosmic joke. A simple 
switch of perception 
and the struggle 
could vanish in smoke.

well i tried and i tried and i tried
i tried to drink it all away
and i tried and i tried and i tried 
i tried to tell myself it'll be okay. 

The struggle's almost over now
but it's worth mentionin'
that there's something i rather liked
about the pain of change, cause it 
seems that i keep going back, turning 
it over in my mind, like a stone.  

Could those feelings really have been 
acceptance? i'll try again.
and i'll try and i'll try and i'll try
i'll try again. 

Strugglin' through
the pain of change
what if this loneliness
is just the acceptance of change
of the things we don't want.

well i tried and i tried and i tried
maybe i'll try again. 


So High

(fuzzy keyboard droning.)

I saw myself finally,

I was really high,

(looping guitar riff.)

I watched from the sky

draping the atmosphere

like a weather balloon

I saw my story;

an American TV reality drama

And I’m the one                                        (strumming acoustic guitar.)

who played the fool,    (female vocalists.)                 played the fool       played the foo-ool, he played the fool.

( unaccompanied.)        and how do you come back down      from this,

from this  life lived with remiss.

(looping acoustic guitar.)

Well,     I saw myself beneath a patch of bitter grey,

where everything seemed in dismay,

and I began to laugh,

it’s hard to take yourself seriously,           when you’re only as big as a pinhead.

He played the foo-hool, played the fool.

life from up here can get pretty strange,

everything gets rearranged (female vocalists humming.) I let myself go further on the tether.

(looping guitar, acoustic strum, harmonize.)

Up here in the stratosphere,                   I feel just like a feather,

No ignorance,       no pain,                 not even shame.

(musical interlude, tempo mezzo.)

It’s about then I realize I’m completely outta my head

and I put all introspection to bed.

Just like that I come back down,      falling on the ground,

nothing is clear, except misery and fear.

Now all I can do is continue to live my story,

even if it means being stuck

in an American reality TV drama.


First let me apologize for my poor attempt at turning this into a song. I had it in my head, but realize that it would not sound the same in yours. Although I will admit I do like this about poetry, or art in general, that its subjective, hit or miss, however it makes the act of writing feel like it’s all for naught.

Either way I’ve ruined the art of poetry either through my lack of music notation, or my inability to relate the rhythm through silence (pause) and word. I realized in writing this that I need to learn musical notation much better in order to pull this off the way I want and so consider this just practice.

thanks so much for your patience and of course for reading!

Roots

I’ll keep you safe

From The cold autumn rain

You’ll keep me safe

From The bright summer sun

We’ll grow together

Our roots are the same

Under this soil of pain

I’ll keep you safe

From The fires and the flame

You’ll always stand by my side

Together we’ll grow

On the backs of our ancestors

From collective dreams

And miseries

Well, I’ll remind you

Of your passion and

You’ll remind me of

My love.

Together we’ll dance

With the sunlight and shade

We reach for the same sky

Together you and I

Staring Back at You

Well you see the stars
In the night sky
They're all staring back at you

hoo-ooh hoo

You see you don't have to
Try, no there's nothing left to do

Do ooh- hoo ooh ooh hoo

Just so you know
All the weight will melt right off of your back.
You've just fallen into a trap
No you don't have to shoulder the 

sky-aye aye.

The weight is all in your own mind
There's nothing left to do.
Don't turn your back now

Well You see the moon
In the night sky
She's looking right down at you

At you hoo ooh ooh hoo-ooh

And if you can resist falling back into the trap,
the weight will fall right off your back
And your light will shine

like the sun in the clear blue

sky-aye aye.

And maybe in the half light you'll open up the door,
Our love will have the key
Our love will have the key.

This was inspired by my wife and written with the tune Atlas by Fanfarlo in mind.

Down

Well I've been
Spending so
Much time
Creating
These little
Battlefields.

I don't want to be down,
Want to be down,
Want to be down,
Like that anymore.

And I been
Stickin' around,
Stickin' around,
Stickin' around,
Trying to win.

No, I don't want
To be
Down, down, down,
Down, down
For the rest of my life.

I spent too much time
Feeling like I
Feeling like I
Like I'm the only one.

Now I keep

Kickin' around
Kickin' around
Kickin' around

Thinking you've
Been messin' around
And now I
Spend too much time
Struggling
All of my life
Mm-mmm all of my life
All of my life.

Now I keep

Runnin' around
Runnin' around
Runnin' around

Creating these
Little battlefields
For myself.
Drawin' those lines
Looking for signs
That I'm not the only one.

I spend too much time
Too much time
Too much time
Bein'
Down, down, down,
Down, down,
Down, next to you.



*Edit: changed formatting and added link.

All of My Life

My life

All of my life

I’ve been runnin’

From thoughts (from you)

 

My life

All of my life

I’ve been runnin’

from truths

runnin’ from myself.

 

Why does it feel like the weight of this world

is pressin’ down on me,

the whole of

the collective

unconscious,

steppin’ down

right on me.

If I could just

give it all up

and set myself free

from duality

it would’ve been worth all of the pain.

 

My lord, My lord

My life

All of the time

I’ve been runnin’ from pain

runnin’ from you. runnin’ from me.

 

I guess I’ll have to say goodbye

Pack it all in

with the hazy lemon sky above me,

And leave the World behind

Scatter my ashes with the wind

‘Cause it don’t matter where I been.