It seems to me
that the pain of change
has been mistaken
all along. Maybe
this lonely
desperation
has really been
acceptance.
well i tried and i tried and i tried
i tried to tell myself it'll be alright.
And now it seems
to me i've gone this
long livin' the great
cosmic joke. A simple
switch of perception
and the struggle
could vanish in smoke.
well i tried and i tried and i tried
i tried to drink it all away
and i tried and i tried and i tried
i tried to tell myself it'll be okay.
The struggle's almost over now
but it's worth mentionin'
that there's something i rather liked
about the pain of change, cause it
seems that i keep going back, turning
it over in my mind, like a stone.
Could those feelings really have been
acceptance? i'll try again.
and i'll try and i'll try and i'll try
i'll try again.
Strugglin' through
the pain of change
what if this loneliness
is just the acceptance of change
of the things we don't want.
well i tried and i tried and i tried
maybe i'll try again.
Tag: Folk
So High
(fuzzy keyboard droning.)
I saw myself finally,
I was really high,
(looping guitar riff.)
I watched from the sky
draping the atmosphere
like a weather balloon
I saw my story;
an American TV reality drama
And I’m the one (strumming acoustic guitar.)
who played the fool, (female vocalists.) played the fool played the foo-ool, he played the fool.
( unaccompanied.) and how do you come back down from this,
from this life lived with remiss.
(looping acoustic guitar.)
Well, I saw myself beneath a patch of bitter grey,
where everything seemed in dismay,
and I began to laugh,
it’s hard to take yourself seriously, when you’re only as big as a pinhead.
He played the foo-hool, played the fool.
life from up here can get pretty strange,
everything gets rearranged (female vocalists humming.) I let myself go further on the tether.
(looping guitar, acoustic strum, harmonize.)
Up here in the stratosphere, I feel just like a feather,
No ignorance, no pain, not even shame.
(musical interlude, tempo mezzo.)
It’s about then I realize I’m completely outta my head
and I put all introspection to bed.
Just like that I come back down, falling on the ground,
nothing is clear, except misery and fear.
Now all I can do is continue to live my story,
even if it means being stuck
in an American reality TV drama.
First let me apologize for my poor attempt at turning this into a song. I had it in my head, but realize that it would not sound the same in yours. Although I will admit I do like this about poetry, or art in general, that its subjective, hit or miss, however it makes the act of writing feel like it’s all for naught.
Either way I’ve ruined the art of poetry either through my lack of music notation, or my inability to relate the rhythm through silence (pause) and word. I realized in writing this that I need to learn musical notation much better in order to pull this off the way I want and so consider this just practice.
thanks so much for your patience and of course for reading!
Roots
I’ll keep you safe
From The cold autumn rain
You’ll keep me safe
From The bright summer sun
We’ll grow together
Our roots are the same
Under this soil of pain
I’ll keep you safe
From The fires and the flame
You’ll always stand by my side
Together we’ll grow
On the backs of our ancestors
From collective dreams
And miseries
Well, I’ll remind you
Of your passion and
You’ll remind me of
My love.
Together we’ll dance
With the sunlight and shade
We reach for the same sky
Together you and I
Staring Back at You
Well you see the stars In the night sky They're all staring back at you hoo-ooh hoo You see you don't have to Try, no there's nothing left to do Do ooh- hoo ooh ooh hoo Just so you know All the weight will melt right off of your back. You've just fallen into a trap No you don't have to shoulder the sky-aye aye. The weight is all in your own mind There's nothing left to do. Don't turn your back now Well You see the moon In the night sky She's looking right down at you At you hoo ooh ooh hoo-ooh And if you can resist falling back into the trap, the weight will fall right off your back And your light will shine like the sun in the clear blue sky-aye aye. And maybe in the half light you'll open up the door, Our love will have the key Our love will have the key.
This was inspired by my wife and written with the tune Atlas by Fanfarlo in mind.
Down
Well I've been Spending so Much time Creating These little Battlefields. I don't want to be down, Want to be down, Want to be down, Like that anymore. And I been Stickin' around, Stickin' around, Stickin' around, Trying to win. No, I don't want To be Down, down, down, Down, down For the rest of my life. I spent too much time Feeling like I Feeling like I Like I'm the only one. Now I keep Kickin' around Kickin' around Kickin' around Thinking you've Been messin' around And now I Spend too much time Struggling All of my life Mm-mmm all of my life All of my life. Now I keep Runnin' around Runnin' around Runnin' around Creating these Little battlefields For myself. Drawin' those lines Looking for signs That I'm not the only one. I spend too much time Too much time Too much time Bein' Down, down, down, Down, down, Down, next to you. *Edit: changed formatting and added link.
All of My Life
My life
All of my life
I’ve been runnin’
From thoughts (from you)
My life
All of my life
I’ve been runnin’
from truths
runnin’ from myself.
Why does it feel like the weight of this world
is pressin’ down on me,
the whole of
the collective
unconscious,
steppin’ down
right on me.
If I could just
give it all up
and set myself free
from duality
it would’ve been worth all of the pain.
My lord, My lord
My life
All of the time
I’ve been runnin’ from pain
runnin’ from you. runnin’ from me.
I guess I’ll have to say goodbye
Pack it all in
with the hazy lemon sky above me,
And leave the World behind
Scatter my ashes with the wind
‘Cause it don’t matter where I been.
